i am doing fine

btw,

you better watch out!

santa claus is coming to town!

he's making a list!

he sees you when u sleeping!

he knows if you're been bad or good!

better not cry i'm telling you why!

SANTA CLAUS IS COMING TO TOWN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

最近

最近大家都不写了。
最近与友人的关系疏远了。
最近不再管别人的眼神了。
最近的最近，
发现自己其实很凡，
容易被情绪困扰、影响-想法、思考、动作。
无可否认我不曾再别人面前爆发，除了家人
以为一直控制到很好。

原来我错了。

lameday

everything was getting along good this morning,
we had breakfast together on the bar table.

things got frustrating later...
first, i got bothered by some missionaries *again*
then some dickheads were minding my business
and that just ruined my day.
i was raging through out the morning.
i moved on, but
things got from bad to worse.
i got picked on the whole fking day.
and night.


its good to pray that no fuckers will fuck ur day up the next morning before u go to bed.

=)

hard past
treasure present

玩游戏

跟你玩个游戏，

类是过关斩将，规则：不许喊累，不能申冤，不可发牢骚，没得发脾气，不能哭，不能complain, 最好不要说太多话。

可以选放弃，不然就一直往前冲，一关又一关，躲避一波又一波迎面盖来的大浪。

对 ！ 只能躲避！不能发表意见，不可防守也没得反击。

这样，你才能继续过关，到终点就会有奖品。奖品是？那只有能到达终点的人才能知道。

问题是：你根本看不到终点在哪里，你会放弃吗？

dates

one good thing bout blogging is that it is a time path for me

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things that happened to me around me for me by me is arranged chronologically

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i was wondering when was the first day i stepped onto this island: and i did recorded down in my blog. 8th of july 2007

when me and you are still strangers

when me and you are still strangers

when me and YOU do not know each other

do you remember yours?

blogmaki so random

i remember 2 years ago,

on a typical friday night after soccer i walked back to my leprena room sat down in front of my laptop with gush of depression

and i blogged.

today,

i cant play soccer anymore.

i miss it.

but i have got to work.

i plan on taking off on friday night. yes, gotta tell me boss!

ironically, right after i put on my apron just now,

me boss requested me to work extra on thursday.

so,

how am i suppose to take a minus two in the planned schedule?

know what?

with very slight concern,

i might get depression soon... i am so lack of socialism nowadays.

i need to go out and get hype!

but when there is a chance,

i often turn it down...

put it like this: i felt a lost of direction in my life...

at least subsequently.

i am affraid.

slight but true.

someone ajak me to gym. setting new directions?

i replied with a smile.

unsure if its a sincere smile or

merely a courteous feedback...

i was browsing scrolling through blogs.

blogs linked around people around me.

discovered familiar bloggers.

people who i know,

more appropriately; people i recognise, 'know' is a big word to use...

don't know could as well be the new know.

hey, i should be careful in writing here...

could be viewed by maybe more than 3 people after this...

i remember i onced have the hit counter gadget when i was with my 2nd blog theme.

but lost it in the messy html codes when i decided for a skin change.

i tried to dig it out but it lost count...

well, sometimes you have to let go of something for new thing to set in, right?

well , its always easier to say than lay.

something more random than this?

.: this morning i got a text by an unknown number:

'are you availabe this morning?'

-no, got to work.

'i had work for you no worries'

-who is this?

' Your favourite uncle'

.:practically, i was stunned. and went back to bed.

i texted the stranger back after i was awake.

he said he got somebody else in to help him out.

i ask who the stranger is he once again.

he mentioned something i cant comprehend. but i am quite sure he got me as the wrong guy.

best part: i do not know who is him/her still... and she/he might still thought i am the person he/she thought i am...

its midnight.

sometimes it feels so good just to write things that pop up in your mind first place.

i might wanna roll back my blog archive and re-tag all the posts... ahh~ sound like fun.

should i post along some pictures?

onion

听过洋葱的故事吗？

超长的，小心要有耐心…

很蓝久以前，在很蓝远的地方天空很蓝蓝，因为人与神之间没有什么距离，一块生活.

蓝天下有个国度，里头大家（神+人）一块都很快乐，快乐到没有伤痛等难过的事情发生。

维持了150年，四王子（si empat） 已21岁了，国王对四王子抱着很大的期望，大儿子嘛，再过几年准备把王国交于他手。si empat一路的人生都有贵人相助，所以为国家赚了不少名声。si empat自知得到父王的宠爱，也顺理陈章有些被宠坏，性格也孤傲。

一天，si empat开着车厢镶金的汉血宝马车到处游手好闲，到了天使们玩乐的花园。看中服侍大仙女的小仙女-包比儿。小仙女由于家境没其他仙女们来的高清（HD）所以较多时间都与人类为伍，也渐渐不再意仙女的身份了。si empat 可是人类的傲料，把妹技巧当蓝很棒！

不用几下计就完全得到了包比儿。四王子很happy^^眉开眼笑的四处炫耀新货，哇靠！天使也给我泡到！！

虽然国王不大同意把王族的血与仙族的血沟买在一起，可是爱子心切，也知道 si empat 年中换货快过换季，也一个眼开一个眼关啦。包比儿也远离天使界，也放弃其在天世界挽回家族声誉的理想了。她慢慢的习惯如此的生活，也渐渐的相信这是他的生活了。包比儿和 si empat 住在城堡里，过着性福快乐的圣活。

2年过后，四王子到远方开拓土地so未来可以种新果子--榴莲。这时，包比儿多数时间都与到在宫中呆了也不少过2年的陪读书童--阿锁海一块儿。阿锁海的出现不是偶然，而是包比儿没有发现他的存在。可能也在某个偶然，他们相识了。他们年龄，兴趣，嗜好等相近，从陌生到了解，结果日久生情。

短短时间，包比儿跟阿锁海经历了不少，快乐。他们为了不要节外生枝，绝对保密！

他们在各自身上找到许多！发现了许多的好与坏！看清了很多的黑与白！

也许，他们都知道，暂时性的快乐，不去在意任何其他的事，再一起快乐就好。

开心的背后，只有阿锁海知道。

每天晚上，阿锁海与包比儿相约在后山花园。

可惜好景不常，他们也没想像中幸福……他们常冷战，可是很快的又和好。总之就像股票市场那样大起大落。但是股票申降都有原因吧~当然他们之间的因数更为清晰，只怕你看不到，不怕你不知道。

终于有一天，包比儿不再赴约了…… 她始终决定回到了四王子身边。

那晚，阿锁海对着一望无际的花海，眼泪掉下了。

花儿，真正见证他们的爱情的花儿，凋谢了。

那天起，花园已不存在，只变成一片草原。人们不能收割花儿，就正要连根拔起草儿来种由四王子威风引进的榴莲时，发现草根凸起膨胀一块瘤状东东，把皮剥开时，眼泪不自觉流下！

是洋葱。

当然榴莲是种不出，洋葱却遍布了整个国度。

这也许是阿锁海痛侧心扉眼泪奔腾的诅咒。

从此，包比儿与王子继续过着只有包比儿自己知道是如何的生活。

可是，包比儿永远不知道的一件事：

阿锁海天天在等待包比儿的出现，并且每次都把右边隔空，保留着位子给包比儿。

阿锁海的心里，永远为包比儿保留一席；却等待着包比儿心里不可能的一个空席。

oh ya

see i am so busy working daily.

monday tuesday wednesday thursday,(do it)

friday, saturday, saturday to sunday (do it)

get get get get get with us, you know what we say

working everyday, w-w-w-working everyday

1 work for 2 restaurants: chinese and japanese

washing dishes, chopping, cutting, cleaning, wiping, running, arranging, cooking, preparing, making sushi etc

normally on weekdays, i am free after 4pm

on weekends, i am free before 4pm

sunday is stay at home day, for in this town of cowboy(with tar and car instead of horshoe and gipsy chic)

oh i gotta story, here goes.

i tried to sketch using paint but its like drawing the intestine of a doll;

its like drawing the legs of the snake;

its like taking off your pants when you fart;

its like wearing a condom after you fu*k.

last last time, on the 24th of august,

we went to hobart on my brand new second hand and serviced 1995 red camry reg. no. fn 5457 reg. til september 14th bridgestone tyres sony cd player auto transmission washed interior and shampooed seats

an hour before i reach hobart,

the car broke down,

not totalled,

but something was definitely worng with the lower part of the engine and the bearing was out of place or something like that.

the inccident that i got my finger crossed not to happen, happened.

i as the driver dragged the cracking car doing 60-70kmph on the highway to the nearest suburb 10minuts from the spot the engine fails me.

i got the car to a mechanic, or maybe the only mechanic in town.

he got me a 2nd hand engine and promised to fix it for me and suggest that i take a bus back to launceston.

in this cursed town, our phone have no signal.

in this cursed town, some flim makers are blocking a road to make a national movie, taking scene of Sydney 100years ago...

imagine this cursed place looks just like sydney a century ago, wonderful!

we spent 5-6 hours in this cursed town.

we had tea in a cafe on the one and only notable street there,

for this incident was so unpredictable we were not layered up for the cold night...

for tasmania is so cold it suck.

instead of going back home,

we decided to take on the journey and went on to hobart.

we walked blindly in the dark on the dead town of hobart city and got ourselves a room in backpacker.

bla

fix car very expensive!!!!

bloody game

this was one of my earliest game. beside wolfenstein 3d preinstalled on my windows 32 10 years ago, the first ever fps! its bloody scary too!

and i found it and i am playing it now! wahahah!

要是我写的是场误会，

那这部落格不再继续。

抱歉了观众们，

THISWILLBETHELASTEMOLEBELEDPOST

perceived

never wanted this never want things to fall out

but things changes, slowly and by stages.

first, you don't talk much anymore.

then, you don't know what to say anymore.

you even categorised what to say before who should know.

later, you don't bother about being together.

physically, mentally.

you can even filtered away my senses.

slowly, you are losing it with me.

signs are showing clearly that it has gone away. back to what you cant let go.

the taste isn't the same when it was there.

it was a 2am last night,

i was alone even right beside.

its the kind of ending i don't really want to see.

and we know its never simple never easy,

but i have to breathe no matter how hard it will be...

things changed, you don't care now.

sorry sorry i love you.

update!

after all these while,

i realised things.

important things.

of all that i've done, or planning to do,

it does not mean much to anybody anymore.

perhaps its time to be brave.

i take and give time,

and in the end i lose the bet.

and there won't be a second chance.

还剩下些什么？

今天在看见镜子里的自己，

原来是个傻瓜。

捉摸不定的考虑，

预算不到的时间，

越来越清楚状况，

越来越模糊方向。

可是我/你还是很自私

一幕幕摆在眼前的事实，

一个个被我抛在脑后。

这旋转木马，

绕了一圈吗？

彼此追逐。却。怀着永恒的距离。

音乐起。我们旋转。音乐落。我们离场。

bankrupt

checked my netbank,

247.47 CR

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certified pokai-ed.

T.T

grrrrr

its my period!

stay away!

****!!!!

working

i want to earn alot of money

$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$

and then,

i want to spend alot of money

$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$

trip sydney review

best thing about the trip: sleep all you can!
worst thing about the trip: missing you...

home

i'm home finally!!!
i'm more than please to be home and in control of my own stuff.








just that,
how come everything can be so dirty and nobody cares?
i don't even feel like walking out my room,
don't feel like cooking anything!!!
肮脏到懒酱！！！！
普吉妈！！！

曾经

有很多曾经，

曾经很陌生，
曾经以为很了解，
曾经答应她对你的事，
曾经真的很努力，
曾经很想放弃，
曾经很有信心，
曾经也很开心，
曾经我很烦，
曾经我希望，


现在，很累……


以后，还有吗？