for the 1st time....

i felt so discourage to do this assignment.
lack in mood
lack in motivation
overwhelmed in pes2009



i was late for a day...
5% off what i can get out of 40%


announcement: i officially hate peter eisenman.

argh...

遗憾。






不能在有！

i hate this part

of my course... the ending part.
why?
i done my final project.
i seriously hate it.
fuck
fuck fuck fuck
1,000,000 kcuf
how am i gonna present it tomorrow?
to tell people how much i hate it?

darn

ok,
now what?
sick at the finals-eve?
i do not know what to do....

counting down...

to the day i am going back malaysia!
yes! i know you miss me...
and i am coming back,
so hug me if you can!
or you can politely ask meto hug you instead!


back to reality,
its the final week of non-stop-cadding!
eat cad
sleep cad
drink cad


and thinking of the hassle and trouble to be handle before leaving,
pain in the arse!
btw,
according to limcc,
the by2 album i downloaded,
i likey the lyrics of the 3rd song,
song name pp something 1,
just love the lyrics!

oh..

.. for the past few days,
i have been camping in studio.
not totally camping mode,
until late night that is for this time.
throughout the whole camping session,
i was watching moonlight resonance and doing model at the same time.
kinda awesome experience.
contradictory kind of adrenaline pump.
able to get the job done and finished the drama =)
presented this morning.
should say yesterday morning ( note the time )
another assignment on monday><
so tomorrow have to start progressing!
have to quote something i saw in the studio:
' procrastination is like masturbating, you feel good during the progress but eventually you will know that you are just fcuking yourself. so stop procrastinating and get the finger out! '

obvious enough its written by a girl.

btw,
the model making is something like editing the previous (green) model by applying 3 theories.
photos next time.
^^



photos on!

finally...

reaching the half of the semester.... can have a rest and there will be a one week holiday next week...
did my presentation today.. managed to get things 'done' and managed to crap abit after the 3hrs sleep this morning.. anyone wants to see the model i made in 1 morning? (note:its a piece of crap the tutors dont even bother to look at it.)

in order to rush things out the nights before, i nearly vomited my heart out... serious.





now.....



its.... time... to RELAX~!

aih

ahhhhhhh~
another sunrise in the uni.
another night without day,
another weekend i spent in the uni without a bed,
without sleep,
without progression,
with loads of stress.


ke-stressness-an

as promised...

raw...








edited.... coming soon..





conclusion: i did so long... so don't like oso give face abit la, i oso give face to myself... took me a lot of courage to post this...


well if you wonder why my title is weird.. then pay attention to my previous post... !@#!$%(yes got abit angry cuz YOU tend to miss my posts if i post 2 in a short period of time)

3rd consecutive days camping in uni

obvious enough.
i lost 5% this morning due to late submission, spent 2 freaking days on the model... gonna show it off abit here... but not nice tho... after seeing others superb models on display...

still doing my panel~!!
this is the kinda of speed i get when i have no idea what to do.... sigh sigh..

due to lack of rest... a horrible acne popped out~ oh emm gee~

by the way, i got a place in the studio~ yay~ gonna camp more often in the uni in the coming days i guess... because this is it.. the last semester of the 1st degree.. (not for me tho, you'd know why, unless you dont care, bout me)

advantage to camp in uni:
1. great spot for sniping (..well, camper??)
2. fast and free internet
3. free heating (sometimes..)
4. free toilet roll
5. free electricity
6. free from coldness of my room
7. can throw rubbish onto the floor (great for model making session)
8. free hot water to bath
9. full length mirror~ 2 sides some more~
10. can steal stuff (if lucky)

disadvantages (expected)
1. no self cooking
2. staircase can be tiring
3. too expose
4. no bed =(
5. no pillow =(
6. no blanket =(
7. no porn
8. no speaker
9. no bittorrent
10. very cold and tiring to go home (if want to)

hobart 2

went hobart again.. some tutorial session with practitioners. Some very good architects were involved in it, but sadly, i was under a noob tutor... so basically, nothing special.

this time we got more people staying together. and we got ourselves a house kinda accommodation.very big and spacious, full kitchen utensils, heater, 4 rooms, 2 bathrooms, 2 storeys, washing machine and fridge.. all basic needs of a house is provided.

ok, picture time~



family pic~

we stopped by some small town on the way back.



i was a pastor...


and did some modeling to promote the church.

good morning

hi how are you?
I am freezing thank you.
In less than 3 hours i will be heading to Hobart.
Just done my model. As usual it looks like shit. I dunno why i spent like... 5 hours plus in the making of it?
Another saturday night, worked like a dog in restaurant, and continue the assignment after that.
do i feel tired?
i dunno how to explain.. cold + exhausted + pain + all sorts of emotional attack + dont forget the psychological side of everything.
with me is my supper-box with clayfish, siuyuk and chicken.. and a ciggy. but i somehow dont feel like eating them.
futursim: my health is gonna be so fcuked up in 20 years time, or less.
optimistic: nothing.
btw, kinda awe by my ipod. its been 2 days since of continuous playing, exclude the pausing, and i found that i have yet encounter a repeated song.

hey, a bald guard with tattoo behind his head just walked pass.
no he is not 47, the tattoo is something with wing, not a barcode. and if its 47, i might have been dead, and still wondering what the heck happened.

ok, my mind is moving to another state.. . better stop before something unorthodox happen.

this shit cost me 4 hrs. blardy hell.
its called vector portrait. something like "a scanner darkly".
here's a link, my tutorial page.
plan to use this technique in my photoshop course final assignment, but, will think about it again, thoroughly.
eh, 1st time leh, give comment sikit thanks. i got another version, with different color layering. anyways, both oso look like hantu.
ahh~
the model i use is already a hantu, so, no wonder.

stress

typical before due date.. PAIN AR~!!!!!!!!!!!!


but then this morning presented it... slept for 2 hrs to get the model done... in 1 night.. starting from 10-5...

the presentation was.. ok.. at least i know what i was talking... or did i?

should i put some pics here? they are like the stirred of crabs and shyte...

1:200

the scale of our model. we spent whole lots of time doing it, even without sleeping. just a rough model. the best part is ... its not even going to be rated/marked. a.k.a: no point doing it.

summer course got chic and she's hot

i can tell you there is a girl doing the same ceramic subject i am doing.



>!<imagine Kristen Dunst, with narrower face, bigger rounder eyes, and a pointed, rounder jaw.
i cant focus on my clay when she is around.
i cant stop pausing and look around, probably and obviously towards her seat.

but sadly she is always in the different working space.
and she is always late after lunch and early to go home.



luckily, after the class has finished, there is this daughter of somebody in my ceramic class appears.
apparently i guess and reckon that she is taking summer course just different subject.
so, after her class finishes she always come down and helps her mom to clean up and packing.
her mom is an aunty with great pottery skill, at least she makes me label her geng.
and the daughter is even geng!!!
the way she wear her shirt... geng!
the way her bra is not hidden under the shirt... geng!
the way her boobs are only half covered behind the bra... woohooo~
i have to admit that if i continue staring at the same position for more than 2 minutes, flag might rise, wind will blow, sun never set and the engine never rest. vampire will not thirst for blood anymore.
beside her.. erhem... her legs are too fat... but it will not be that bad after a couple of yoga classes
XD


i love summer art school. beautiful.

freedom x sad

Finally i am free! free of stress free of assignments!
Sadly, i don't have any games to play...
Sadly, i cant take culinary and photoshop in summer school.
Sadly, i forced to take black and white photography, i don't really know what.
Sadly, i only have one last piece of 50dollar bill.
Sadly, i have to settle some house thingy.
Sadly, i need to go and look for a temporary job.
Sadly, i found the apple picking job but it only start in Dec.
Sadly, my laptop started to produce 'busy' sound..even it is not. T.T
Sadly, i am still lonely.
Sadly, Launceston is dull

The reason for me to post this is because i am very free, when i am in my room. and moreover, i broke the ipod earphone (the right side is now and will forever be mute)i am just trying to clean them with these...

(my favourite condom sizes wet tissue)

or maybe i am too rude doing it...

it makes me so sad... so i do feel sad about stuff i randomly looted. the sound quality is good, but sadly, only pleasure my left ear now... but i don't think i am going to use it again... unless have to.

ok now my back is aching.. still aching... it feels like... ant bites, just with a far larger mouth that is able to bite the area between my shoulders. the pain strikes me occasionally, it strikes when it feels like.
done my final presentation, finally, but, i have no idea what was i presenting. its like i haven't totally expressed my idea. know why? cuz i've been working hard previous week, overnight at library, working till late, doing last minute research (the problem with myself, indecisive of my concept, always comes out with extra ideas, with no time to fully convert it. noob.) then on saturday, worked on my laptop continuously for 20 hrs in my school, and the next day after that, from 12 to 1am. handed it in 30+ minutes passed the submission deadline, but still it will be ok, as long as i don't use my pendrive to plug into the macbook during presentation, still (self)considered on-time submission.presentation was on 9am the same day. without preparation and stuff. aih. (a thing i find quite high-tech, maybe because its the first time i am doing it, the submission is on midnight, weird right? and we just have to access school mac and drag our folder into the server, and the next morning, our work will appear in the macbook, more awesome is that because we were divided into smaller groups with different tutor and different tutorial rooms, and they never make mistakes by putting you in the wrong group. efficiency.) i suck big time in my design presentation, and was late for my BTD submission, there goes my 5%.
After the submission, i learn alot of lesson. Never do last minute design alteration. Be more precise on what the question want. Know my own limits(if so, i actually ended doing nothing, my limit scale 0-0.1) Read more journals. Get a new mouse. GET A CAR.( fuck yes, no car, no class, no submission, no nothing, no use, can die. bus fare expensive, ccb no bus after 5pm, take bus not flexible, got car can go home bath, nonit waste 1 hr waiting for bus during weekend, nonit hand up assignment at night, no car can freeze to death, no car can go back malaysia help my dad do spectacle.oops, cannot oso, cannot go airport leh... fuck la)
I used alot of programs in this assignment. and lucky enough my laptop still can handle it. Just. Archicad, Autocad, powerpoint, photoshop, and alots of opened file n folder. photoshop, killing my space; archicad, consuming my memory; autocad, i forgot 95% how to use it. and i was like, have to keep on thinking of many things, resolution of problems, new method of solving problems and stuff. and i was so stupid i forgot i can use my camera as scanner, so i can simply hand draw and take picture~!! draw every sketch diagrams using autocad, waste time. publish to pdf, edit in photoshop, convert to jpeg.. damn. used alot of newly attempt software throughout this assignment: sketch up, photoshop, archicad. and forgot the software i once super familiar with-- autocad.
enough of babbling, i just loan 13 books from library. and tomorrow have to start studying for next week visual test. scary arr~~ cannot do what i did during college: low input, can still get reasonable output. here low input = hell. last time after class can stay at home dota till next 'available' class. relax. and because of that, my knowledge are so damn limited. I was like 100 years behind.