玩游戏

跟你玩个游戏，

类是过关斩将，规则：不许喊累，不能申冤，不可发牢骚，没得发脾气，不能哭，不能complain, 最好不要说太多话。

可以选放弃，不然就一直往前冲，一关又一关，躲避一波又一波迎面盖来的大浪。

对 ！ 只能躲避！不能发表意见，不可防守也没得反击。

这样，你才能继续过关，到终点就会有奖品。奖品是？那只有能到达终点的人才能知道。

问题是：你根本看不到终点在哪里，你会放弃吗？

BIG SIGH!

something really BAD happened...

its could easy be the worst of the year...

very the painful to the max sia!

coming right to you in, (atm i'm thinking...) slides of sketches...

tuning into hee's blog to get the latest update from all your friends!

要是我写的是场误会，

那这部落格不再继续。

抱歉了观众们，

THISWILLBETHELASTEMOLEBELEDPOST

perceived

never wanted this never want things to fall out

but things changes, slowly and by stages.

first, you don't talk much anymore.

then, you don't know what to say anymore.

you even categorised what to say before who should know.

later, you don't bother about being together.

physically, mentally.

you can even filtered away my senses.

slowly, you are losing it with me.

signs are showing clearly that it has gone away. back to what you cant let go.

the taste isn't the same when it was there.

it was a 2am last night,

i was alone even right beside.

its the kind of ending i don't really want to see.

and we know its never simple never easy,

but i have to breathe no matter how hard it will be...

things changed, you don't care now.

sorry sorry i love you.

update!

after all these while,

i realised things.

important things.

of all that i've done, or planning to do,

it does not mean much to anybody anymore.

perhaps its time to be brave.

i take and give time,

and in the end i lose the bet.

and there won't be a second chance.

还剩下些什么？

今天在看见镜子里的自己，

原来是个傻瓜。

捉摸不定的考虑，

预算不到的时间，

越来越清楚状况，

越来越模糊方向。

可是我/你还是很自私

一幕幕摆在眼前的事实，

一个个被我抛在脑后。

这旋转木马，

绕了一圈吗？

彼此追逐。却。怀着永恒的距离。

音乐起。我们旋转。音乐落。我们离场。

grrrrr

its my period!

stay away!

****!!!!

曾经

有很多曾经，

曾经很陌生，
曾经以为很了解，
曾经答应她对你的事，
曾经真的很努力，
曾经很想放弃，
曾经很有信心，
曾经也很开心，
曾经我很烦，
曾经我希望，


现在，很累……


以后，还有吗？

雨

下了好久……



Hobart 两天，
雨中练球 — 冷到死也可以那么帅！
穿拖鞋+睡衣走街 — 核突到死也可以那么帅！
微笑pasta — 辣到要死也可以那么帅！
男人谈爱情 — 电梯也可以那么帅！
跟师兄们吹水 — 也可以那么帅！



到家
原来
给我猜中了*


应该给什么反应？
应该给什么表情？
原来一点也不帅。

我一直在做什么？
我可以做什么？
我因该做什么？

一点甜三点酸六点苦
我的烦恼讽刺，
你却若无其事。

sunday

one word,












clueless.




of everything.
EVERYTHING.


i do not know why am i so depressive
in fact i do not know myself well enough to know what i want from what i thought i know which i do not know what

saturday

i need alot of money!!
my boss cant offer me to work more,
but my peer is working 5 days a week!!!
his wages is mine by 5!!
meaning his 1 week wages is more than my 1 month's!

ok i decided to go hunt for another job beside hunting mouse.
so i can earn more money!!
this semester is about earning money and spending money.



already got a list of not cheap stuff to buy....

suddenly depressed.
after a tiring futsal game.
here i am sitting in my room,
listening to songs,
doing nothing
more precisely dont feel like doing anything.
nor sleeping,
i wish i could do something but i cant
suddenly feel like there are things i need to do,
but i don't feel like doing them...
blame the weather!
too cold for me to reach for my guitar,
too lazy for me to start playing it...


its saturday tomorrow,
and i need to go to work...
i need to maybe look for an extra job somewhere,
where workload is much lighter.


just a few more days maybe...
this sunday maybe,
i could do something.

be safe.

3

hi
here i am alone with 4 walls.
again.




.
.
.
.
.
.
.
maybe i need to go to the school few after 12 maybe at 1 later.
after web chat with my mom...
help out my 4th years classmate housemates
and hopefully i can still hold my sanity in one piece.


miserable!!!
but
i know its just temporary!

4

i downloaded several albums of old songs.
like 3 years back.
mesmerizing.


found my family in my brother's blog












been talking to myself since last night.
wonder what is going on there?
insecurity

5

yes i will keep on counting down!!

a round up of my semester?
firstly,
its kinda weird...
going back to second year...
and the impression of my classmates...
totally nerdy...
=)
like.. a group of asians who hang out together at all times..
and play dota, left4dead everything together,
study together,
do assignments together,
and will always feel stress before even starting the assignments.
but!
BUT
i envy their bond!
this kind of unity cant be seen in other years.
keep holding on!

and!
dont stress yourself so much!
relax relax things are not that bad!
i believe all of you can develop proness in coming year.




angmoh students!
they are all very dedicated,
very confident!
too much confident!
not realising that its just second year!
what you guys doing are still child's play,
so go on and i wish you a falling day...


overall comment: 2nd year is really a big gap compare to 3rd year. be prepared!



kthxbyethankyouyou

6

done my slide test.. still do not know the building A in question 3...


new to-do list:
1. visa renewal
2. medibank (was it last year when it says expires?)
3. enrollment
4. money
5. rest and relax
6. live the next miserable 6 days
7. do something at all time! minimise the injury...
8. which include guitar and cakes maybe...











1,2,3,4,5,6,7
pain pain pain

7

wah.. slide test on tuesday!!!

holly molly!!
bloody shit!!

dont feel like memorizing a shit!!
hate slide test!!!
its a shame its still going on!!!
















take care and stay good.

9 + 8

things were alright,
done my interior assignment on friday night.
and when it comes to saturday night,
things went a bit wrong...
things were off...the norm,
or maybe it is suppose to be like this,
which obviously sucks, for me.
i cant stop thinking about it,
i even awake in my sleep with this stuff running in my mind...
its hard,
i hope its not what i thought,
is that really what you sought?

10

the perfect 10
but i don't really care about numbers now
or maybe
i dont really care when there is something else more worthy of my attention
worthy of taking care than them numbers.




numbers.......
cant live without them,
cant live on them.


chuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuu~~~~~