BIG SIGH!

something really BAD happened...

its could easy be the worst of the year...

very the painful to the max sia!

coming right to you in, (atm i'm thinking...) slides of sketches...

tuning into hee's blog to get the latest update from all your friends!

bloody game

this was one of my earliest game. beside wolfenstein 3d preinstalled on my windows 32 10 years ago, the first ever fps! its bloody scary too!

and i found it and i am playing it now! wahahah!

要是我写的是场误会，

那这部落格不再继续。

抱歉了观众们，

THISWILLBETHELASTEMOLEBELEDPOST

perceived

never wanted this never want things to fall out

but things changes, slowly and by stages.

first, you don't talk much anymore.

then, you don't know what to say anymore.

you even categorised what to say before who should know.

later, you don't bother about being together.

physically, mentally.

you can even filtered away my senses.

slowly, you are losing it with me.

signs are showing clearly that it has gone away. back to what you cant let go.

the taste isn't the same when it was there.

it was a 2am last night,

i was alone even right beside.

its the kind of ending i don't really want to see.

and we know its never simple never easy,

but i have to breathe no matter how hard it will be...

things changed, you don't care now.

sorry sorry i love you.

update!

after all these while,

i realised things.

important things.

of all that i've done, or planning to do,

it does not mean much to anybody anymore.

perhaps its time to be brave.

i take and give time,

and in the end i lose the bet.

and there won't be a second chance.

还剩下些什么？

今天在看见镜子里的自己，

原来是个傻瓜。

捉摸不定的考虑，

预算不到的时间，

越来越清楚状况，

越来越模糊方向。

可是我/你还是很自私

一幕幕摆在眼前的事实，

一个个被我抛在脑后。

这旋转木马，

绕了一圈吗？

彼此追逐。却。怀着永恒的距离。

音乐起。我们旋转。音乐落。我们离场。

bankrupt

checked my netbank,

247.47 CR

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certified pokai-ed.

T.T

F-I-N-E !!!!

grrrrr

its my period!

stay away!

****!!!!

working

i want to earn alot of money

$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$

and then,

i want to spend alot of money

$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$

trip sydney review

best thing about the trip: sleep all you can!
worst thing about the trip: missing you...

home

i'm home finally!!!
i'm more than please to be home and in control of my own stuff.








just that,
how come everything can be so dirty and nobody cares?
i don't even feel like walking out my room,
don't feel like cooking anything!!!
肮脏到懒酱！！！！
普吉妈！！！

曾经

有很多曾经，

曾经很陌生，
曾经以为很了解，
曾经答应她对你的事，
曾经真的很努力，
曾经很想放弃，
曾经很有信心，
曾经也很开心，
曾经我很烦，
曾经我希望，


现在，很累……


以后，还有吗？

雨

下了好久……



Hobart 两天，
雨中练球 — 冷到死也可以那么帅！
穿拖鞋+睡衣走街 — 核突到死也可以那么帅！
微笑pasta — 辣到要死也可以那么帅！
男人谈爱情 — 电梯也可以那么帅！
跟师兄们吹水 — 也可以那么帅！



到家
原来
给我猜中了*


应该给什么反应？
应该给什么表情？
原来一点也不帅。

know what,
i thought i'd be fine by yesterday,
but i am still down with fever!!!!
no its not possible to be swine flu,
for i am so sure about it i will not call the hot line....

面包夹旦系最正嘎！

我一直在做什么？
我可以做什么？
我因该做什么？

一点甜三点酸六点苦
我的烦恼讽刺，
你却若无其事。

sunday

one word,












clueless.




of everything.
EVERYTHING.


i do not know why am i so depressive
in fact i do not know myself well enough to know what i want from what i thought i know which i do not know what

saturday

i need alot of money!!
my boss cant offer me to work more,
but my peer is working 5 days a week!!!
his wages is mine by 5!!
meaning his 1 week wages is more than my 1 month's!

ok i decided to go hunt for another job beside hunting mouse.
so i can earn more money!!
this semester is about earning money and spending money.



already got a list of not cheap stuff to buy....

suddenly depressed.
after a tiring futsal game.
here i am sitting in my room,
listening to songs,
doing nothing
more precisely dont feel like doing anything.
nor sleeping,
i wish i could do something but i cant
suddenly feel like there are things i need to do,
but i don't feel like doing them...
blame the weather!
too cold for me to reach for my guitar,
too lazy for me to start playing it...


its saturday tomorrow,
and i need to go to work...
i need to maybe look for an extra job somewhere,
where workload is much lighter.


just a few more days maybe...
this sunday maybe,
i could do something.

be safe.